MY STORY
My story of me
everybody have story
but story is story
real thing is all about transformation
if by reading ones story somebody get help
or get transformed
it is worth reading
my life also transformed by my beloved master osho
it was day of utterly hopelessness, frustration, direction less
the day come,
i come in contact with his message,
the day come i come in contact with his love,compassion
everything changes
everything become colorful
everything become love, light, laughter
all hopelessness, all frustration disappear
still sometime they come, but pass away fast
when direction is clear, there is hope, there is love, there is song
when one recognize no matter where you are, you are not alone, you are with whole, you are with whole cosmos, then there is no fear
then there is not i and you
then there is you in me
here is me in you
there is mountain, there is river , there is stars
all in me, me is all, all is me..
this is story of expansion of conciousness
this is story of love
when love expand so big, so big, it include all and everything,
then there is not me and you
then there is we
when all is we, me disappear
me is very small,
me create its small world of its own
me wants to expands
me is so small so helpless
it expands when it let go boundary
when it let go mental boundary
when let go emotional boundary
when it let go spirtitual boundary
all the forces of the universe can not enter in because, there is many boundary
physical. mental, emotinal, spirtital..
when all is let go, there is vastness left
there is emptiness left
there is we left
then we is me
me is we
all boundaries disappear
all limitation disappear
there is wholeness there
living in this wholeness
we become holy
holy are having healing power,
healing only can happen with whole
all the love, light, laughter, peace flow through whole, and return to whole
healing is needed when one is away from whole,
once a person is whole healing already happen
healing is love
love is healing
love is laughter
love is celebration
love is meditation
love is love
love is compassion
love is wisdom
love is the way
love is prayer
love is song
love is dance….
all is love….
My childhood beginning is very unique , it can divide in to two parts
Before coming to Osho commune, before age 7
My parents life is totally change meeting with Osho , by reading his books, listening to his discourses they got interested in knowing them self, I saw them everyday doing mediation, also encourage me to do so…, they encourage me to sit silently with them, at that time I am not so much interested in what they do...I just pretend to do meditation with them , repeat what they do…
One time, one evening, during dinner ,electricity cut off for few moment, my parents utter “o light is gone” I suddenly realize that light is within me, light is here now, light is not gone. For a moment it was totally silent, as if time stop, that was my first glimpse of meditation.
We have also small Osho meditation center affiliated by Osho commune, its name was Nartan Rajneesh Dhyan Kendra, Osho that time was called Rajneesh, Nartan is name of my mother given by Osho, Dhyan means Meditation, Kendra means center.
So as having meditation center, my father and mother usually arrange meditation camp, in our small town (sirsa) Haryana in Northern India. Many people near by town come to attend the 3 days camp. So, in childhood I was surrounded by many Osho lovers, mediators, come n go in our home for meditation, for sharing and get together.
My parents in childhood give me total care, they usually persuade me to read Osho articles, but I was not interested neither in school education nor Osho teachings. I do go to school but I did not like it so much.
After 7, at 1983-84
My father decide to left job, wanted to go to Pune Osho International Commune forever. So he sold his house, left job and we shift to Pune Osho center, along with the family. We become the resident of Osho commune international. This time was most beautiful time in my life, because first 2-3 years I no go to school. More play more freedom to be myself, and dancing, singing, playful environment. Life no any worries, it seems we were in heaven…!!
Being in Buddha field, being in beautiful environment I slowly come interested in Osho meditation technique. Experimenting with different Osho technique and play with them, to understand his teachings.
After when Osho come to back to Pune in 1986, Osho commune was filled with all his eastern and western disciple…commune was filled with orange people.
My parents, especially mother worried about me and my brother education. At that time I was not interested in society education at all. I feel that I will be going to live in commune forever…
Finally after many time mother pushing and arguing with me to go to school, I decide to write letter to Osho, regarding my education. I say to mother if Osho said go for study then only then I will go to school, otherwise I am not going to study at all.
So I write letter to him, asking him about my school education is necessary for me ? I ask him that, I not interested in society education, I want to live in commune forever…!!
After one week or so I got his beautiful response,
That my Sanyas is not escape from society,
Sanyas mean to be in society and to be your own master.
Not to escape from the world, but be in it, live it.
I gave my disciple name swami, that means to be master of oneself,
Not to depend on me, or any ashram.
After getting his letter I decided to study…
And in 1988 our family decided to go back our home town in Sirsa (Haryana) north India.
With no home, no job living in our uncle home (father Brother) my father start working with my uncle as partner in his company of Steel furniture’s
As per influence of living in Osho community is very great, because it gives me taste of meditation, taste of playfulness, taste of His presence. In the other hand it gives great challenge in our life, when we return back to north India, from Zero my family start our business again. It was great challenge to test our awareness, to test our meditation quality. It is said in order to become stronger, life give many challenges in life to grow. That exactly happen with us too.
What is the essence Osho teaching in our life?
All Osho teaching and other master Teaching essence is meditation. Meditation means awareness. All technique purpose is to become aware and witness of our body mind and emotions. There are many meditation techniques in this world from different teachers and masters. Osho himself have many meditation techniques himself. He has given general guideline how to chose a technique which fit the most to your body mind type is
is very simple, He says if you like one or two meditation technique it very much, experiment with it that technique 3 days continuously, if it fits with your spiritual growth, you will feel more happy, alive, loving, meditative, if it do so, go on continuing with same method as long as it feels good. If during
3 days, If it does not feel good, instead one become angry, frustrated , unloving, definitely that technique is not work for you, choose another that fit you. and make you more beautiful than you are now. So choose the technique is very carefully, that which open your heart, nourish you is the best friend for you forever.
It also happens that after continuously practicing for many years with the same technique, one come to some stage it no longer serve you , make you happy, fulfilled rather you feel not nourish by it, then is time to change the technique.
Here key principal is that the technique one chose, one must enjoy it first, if one enjoys it then one become total and whole hearted.
The key purpose for each meditation is to know to know one self, to understand one self? To know who you are is the key purpose of meditation. What is purpose of one’s life? To know who you are and why you are here is only thing that is most important in life, otherwise why one live in this life ?
Now this age is information technology age, there is so much information at the tips of finger, so many books are there on spirituality, mediation, self growth. Off course one can get good result just by reading books, listening to masters, one process of growing can be faster.
But it can also make other way around, that one get more confuse, agitated, angry. One may get more disturb just by taking so much information inside, instead of becoming empty mind one become full with much confused. Some time we take so much information inside it disturbs us more because that information points us in different direction.
If any book uplift your consciousness, if any teacher uplift your level of consciousness, create deep gratitude for existence, for life that is very beautiful things can happen in life. No matter what background or what religious background you are from, any book or master or teachers touch your heart so deeply that you don’t have any words to explain anything but just being silence and gratitude for everything….
Good books have power to make one come close to one self, create deep longing for meditation, and create longing to know one self…
I was not read any religious book, till at the age of 14, even the Osho book. But at age of 14, my father as usual listens to the discourse of Osho in North India. At that I don’t know what happen, I was so much attracted towards his powerful voice, and words that make me totally silent and still. It was First time I listen to him, Before I listen to him many times but never goes in my head at all, for two reason first I was not interested in any spirituality, second I don’t understand English so much. But while in osho commune I was just enjoy the playful and loving environment that touches me so much. After listening to first time Osho teachings in Hindi, my life shift totally, my father support me arrange many his books and teachings for me to understand his teachings. I come in contact with such a powerful teacher, such powerful voice and aura , At that time I have only one wish that before I go to death I want to know Him (Osho) who he is and to know who I am ? This is The only one wish I have that time.
After finishing my education in engineering in Civil, in 2001, come back to Pune Osho Commune again to participate in Various Osho meditation, therapies to experiment with different Osho meditation technique and teachings. It was great nourishment and growth for me during 2001 to 2005. In 2005 I was invited by one of my friend from Taiwan to share Osho meditations, Osho yoga in her beautiful center called Mystic garden.
It was so great to share meditation and yoga with friends from Taiwan. From 2005 I also come in contact with different teachings from different teacher from eastern and western Teachers and masters. I also come in contact wonderful teachings from many books, such as Power of now, The new earth, Conversation with God, The four agreement, The power vs force etc. By reading different books, and other teachers I come to realize that consciousness level of this earth is changing with high speed. There is shift of consciousness is happening all over the world. There is wave of awakening is happening right now, if you allow yourself to go with the flow this wave of energy will rise you, this wave of energy will carry you towards more love, more bliss, more awareness….
Opposite also can be possible, that somebody who is not go with the flow, still carrying old stuff, such as past unresolved issues, past unresolved emotions one may become worse and worse. It is very important time in our History, never this happen in any civilization that Science and Spirituality is meeting together. This age is going to be golden age after many thousand years of struggle and darkness.
So now two kind of energies are growing simultaneously side by side, one is energy of love, trust, wisdom, consciousness is growing and in other side it dark forces also becoming stronger with anger violence, hate, war etc. If your energy vibration is low, you may be attract towards hate, violence and turmoil. If your energy vibration is high, you may be rise in love, consciousness, trust. Be part of rise in consciousness, be part of love, light, laughter, meditation, celebration and positivity in life. You will not only help yourself, but help your family members, society and countries but the whole earth conscious rise, with awakening of one single consciousness.
In my upbringing, in my meditation practice we use lots of high vibration music to uplift the energy vibration of human being. So all my meditation begin with music, dance, celebration …because energy music have power to change shift in our body and mind….when it combine with energy movement , it changes chemistry of your body, it change our aura more vibrant and make our cells of body become more vibrant with rhythm of energy music and flow of energy take place.
When one come in flow, one naturally become playful and innocent. By being playful and innocent one can easily go beyond boundary of body and mind. It is not necessary to do hard work if one is already very simple, innocent, playful. Hard work is needed when one is burden by many thoughts, emotions, painful memories. Then some powerful method is needed to let go pain body, let go painful emotions.
Osho has introduce powerful meditation technique, very fit for highly burdened man with lots of information, because now modern man is much complex , much burdened than 2500 year ago when Buddha was alive. At that time man was simple, he was just doing simple job like farming, hunting, etc , at that time just sitting silently was very easy, to experience meditation was so simple , but today modern man is filled with millions of information , Internet, TV, video, many invisible harmful waves surround us, man mind is much faster n complex than before. So in order to clean unnecessary burden one must go for active meditation, and then slowly move towards passive meditation.
life is just a play
I was initated in to Osho Sanyas at age 7, And given new name Vinod Bharti. Vinod is very beautiful name , it means that life is just a play, life is just is not serious. This name in itself carry deep secret of universe, This universe is non serious, playful. This simple message is given by each and every tree, birds, animals, river, ocean, mountains, planets, galaxies. All things which we see through our eyes are playful, except man human everywhere is leela (play)is going on. When one become playful and non serious by meditations, by wonderful teachers, great books one come to know this secret by and by ,as one start journey in to meditation, journey in to awareness by and by understanding emerge. As one goes deeper in to meditation every things become Leela (play), everything become non serious, everything become playful. Even all the worries, obstacles not seems worries and obstacle, it seems existence is playing some game to make me more playful. Existence wants me to be more playful and non serious.
As one go deeper in into meditation , one become observer of all his action, thoughts, and slowly one become unidentified with the thoughts and obstacle, When one become witness, simply observe things as they are without judgment and labeling and creating stories. Then person have much more power to deal with the problem, to deal with obstacle, because that time one feel obstacle is not obstacle just one need to be more playful and prayerful. Even when one dies, get dangerous quick, one can be witness and playful. That is power of meditation.
Life is echo
Life is echo, who you are in this moment, universe response according to that. If you are blissful you feel bliss, you see bliss all around, you spread bliss all around. and if you are in anger , hate you cannot see beauty all around, u cannot listen the sound of birds, universe response accordingly.
Strength of positivity only can be maintained by focusing on yourself, by loving one self, by meditation one discover what is necessary and uplifting in ones life, what makes you feel good, what make you feel conscious. Just focus on that quality that raise your conscious, uplift you. And naturally as one enjoy the most, focus the most. More focus on positivity, love, awareness, rise in love, awareness, and positivity.
It is perfectly okay to fulfill all your desires, wishes, without identification with them. Once you identified with them then you come in to circle of hate, anger, jealousy, greed etc. When you use things, and not used by them, play them but not played by them then it is fine, otherwise one come in to trap.
In my whole life I have been focusing on love, light, laughter, meditation and celebration so in my all teaching I use these qualities to raise the energy vibration of each individual. Because when I was so much fall down, deep darkness, valley of soul, I raise up by playfulness, love, light, laughter and meditations. So all my sharing is very simple and natural, to be playful, to be aware, to be total. And if you are playful, aware, and total, you can enjoy anything in front of you, no matter where you are you will enjoy each moment of life, just being total, just being playful. By being total, aware and playful you become childlike innocent. In order to advance in any practice one should be like child like and one can experience beauty and bliss within oneself. When you are in beauty and bliss, you attract more joy and beauty comes in to your life. Hence it is great and essential for everyone natural, playful, aware and total.
So it is possible, if one living in mind, living with lots of knowledge and information, it become burden in the head, so one if cannot go beyond it, if cannot witness it, it is absolutely possible that one from outside seems to be much knowledgeable on the other hand is empty inside, this kind of person seldom advance on the path of liberation. In order to go beyond your boundary of your body n mind one should be loose and natural to let go unessential burden, let go block energy, so that essential can come in.
For me there is one spirituality that is to know one self. To recognise and remember who you are ? By meditation you become more silent, conscious. In that silence moment of consciousness, ask your higher self , who am I ? why I am here ? what I can do to best for myself and everyone surround me.
You will get answer, or message or intuition or direction in the form of feeling or sensation…listen to that sensation, feeling, and intuition to guide your life more abundance, more nourishing, more fulfilling life, more fulfilling life style. The choice is yours.
Each person is unique, and rare. Each have have some gifted talent, has to share something in this world, one has to search this hidden gift given by nature, hidden talent within your heart , first search it and expressed with his total heart to share with fellow friends and seekers of the path.
Once you start expressing your gifted talent, and hidden treasure, universe blessing shower on you…because you fulfill your destiny, you fulfill your self, which no other can do instead of you, no other person can fulfill in place of you. you are the masterpiece. Never before and never after. You are unique flower, discover which flower you are and spread your fragrance all around.
So by meditation you become more conscious, by being conscious one knows one self , and consciously create what you want to experience in this life time, when you are aligned with your higher self, divinity in you, all your material needs will be fulfilled, all the duties and family responsibility become more loving and playful.
With so much love and blessings in my heart, may you go for your journey. May you start your journey with much love, trust, and experience love, light, laughter and meditation in your life.
Love n light
Vinod